We move into our apartment in less than a week. Gods I'm so ready. The job is still...pending. That part is a little depressing but everyone keeps reassuring me that I am going to get it regardless so I'm holding out. Christmas was a lovely affair. I didn't get anything I couldn't live without but I got a few things that I found to be very lovely. Most notably a very nice astrological sign necklace, a new tarot deck and two spreads books, and a wall hanging of Icarus that I find to be very sexy.

Currently just hanging out...wishing this week would hurry. I am ready to get my "new life" underway.

It's snowing on Christmas Eve for the first time in my life. It's so magical, and the jubilant child within me is dancing quietly with glee.

Merry Christmas everyone.

I thought to myself a couple of weeks ago that I really ought to start blogging again. I've just felt very...boring lately. Which is so bizarre since a lot is actually happening. So let me just give a crack at it.

Back in November I was working for Barnes and Noble in Irving. It was a pretty okay job really. I was back to serving coffee and I had met a really good friend there. The problem was that my new roommates were, once again, the roommates from hell. By the time I had spent a couple of months there I was ready to call it quits. And I did. I went to my university office and I talked to them about leaving housing and paying off my last semester of school out of pocket instead of with loans.

I moved back home to quaint and ugly Brownwood and for the past month I have been commuting over a three hour drive to school and back twice a week. We are, of course, currently on Christmas break so I am enjoying that!

Most recently, yesterday in fact, I drove up not for school, but for a client meeting. A foreign exhange summer camp was looking for a website redesign, and myself and three of my classmates decided to take it on. We have until the 21 to complete it for them and we are getting paid. I am looking at making a little over $100 dollars from it.

And, also recently, it has been looking like I will be getting a job at the local used game store. I'm pretty excited about it because I am in dire need of money, and it seems like a really easy job with really nice guys to work with.

Lastly, I have an apartment. My first apartment that is not part of school housing. That is why it was so imperative I get a job. It's a newer, cleaner apartment just a block from the supermarket. One bedroom, with all appliances. Even a washer and dryer. Jessica and I will just be paying $450 a month plus a small electricity and internet bill. I am very much looking forward to having a house that is truly my own!

Most of all...it is time to start writing again once it is all settled. I very well may be continuing my schooling towards Creative Writing and I am damned rusty. So take a deep breath and here we go!

I hope everyone is having an absolutely fabulous Christmas this week. Relax and keep in mind that it's a time that -you- are important, so think of yourself! ;]

Degrassi's new gay character is a football player. Hm. Talk about switching the roles. And from what I can se it doesn't actually suck like it was there for a long while. They're just filling up our lovely stereotypes. Unfortunately I see emma and manny are still around. Suck. Anyway, it's kind of interesting. Not enough to watch it. They'll have to win me over a little more for that but....hm. Cool.

It's been a really weird, painful few months.

I'm learning alot about my boundaries and limits, about my wants in life, about my failures. Things shift and rearrange a lot and it gives me vertigo feelings. I'm trying to figure it out. I'm trying to learn from it. I'm trying to think that the scars will be worth it. I'm learning it's harder to be optimistic about things, but I'm learning it feels more powerful when you still manage to be at the end of the day.

Life is hard. Funny how life makes you a masochist though.

I'm mostly just learning to be myself though, as hard as that may be. And it's the damned slowest journey I've ever had to make.

My first day at B&N is Thursday, and I'll work the following two days as well. I'm glad. I may have some hellacious apartment payments to make as well as needing to buy my book for my Flash class.

That's worth talking about I suppose. Collegiate Housing, being the large band of fuck ups and blood sucking harpies that they are, realized that they are poor like everyone else in the world and so are now shipping everyone out of certain apartment complexes, makin their pool of apartments smaller. This means that I am having to clean this damned thing by myself and then pack and also make sure that Jessica is well taken care of before the due date. It's stressful. And sometimes, when a situation is stressful, I like to ignore it completely. Guess what? That creates more stress...just later. =]

Anyway, but I don't feel stessed out. Merely...disconnected. I've been in my own head a shitload this week. I couldn't for the life of me say why. The only thing I seem to want to do is play sims because if I wasn't I would probably be hearing noises that aren't there or making up strange stories that only I tend to understand. (Can you tell that my brain is starting to make real life weird yet? I can only hope the deterioration is a this month only sort of deal.)

I also need to dye my hair =[ Blond was fun but I have got some ridiculous roots right now. I'll probably just go back to red for lack of money. I kind of hope I can get a job at a more laid back sort of place whenever I graduate. I want pale blond hair with lavender highlights. That's my weird hair want of the month and it sounds gorgeous. (SHE'S GOOORGUSS!)

Life has been exceedingly quiet. I have my second interview with Barnes and Noble today at three so I hope I got the job. I know I swore off of Starbucks for life, but I really need the money and since I had Starbucks on my application twice they ust immediately shipped me to the cafe area. They seem sweet though.

I have been doing a sims legacy house. About to ship my second/third generation off to college. I wonder if I will get to ten?

Otherwise I am just hanging out. Waiting for our trip to the coast. One day of sand and sunburns before I must return. School starts again like...next week I think. Or the next. Whichever.

Woke up this evening to the sound of a woman crying. It was only a split second, that wet sort of ragged inhale mid-sob. But it only lasted a blink. It was enough to wake me up and keep me up lying in the dark though XD

I am not going to say that I'm schizophrenic because honestly who the hell really knows? xD I can admit I have a very vivid imagination and if it is schizophrenia then it's an extraordinarily mild case (thank god).

I've heard a man vomiting in Jessica's yard. The click on her porch (every damn time I step onto it). There was the knocking on my second story window about three times. And when I was still living at home a year ago I could hear deep breathing a lot. All of it, like I said, is very, very mild but it's enough to give me a heartattack late at night! Talk about being in a horror film.

Anyway, I'll get it diagnosed one day. Just have to get the moolah first. I just realized I'd never told it to anyone beyond Jessica and my professor so why not my lj.

Anyways, back to sims. I has a family of 9! Aaah babies.

Well it is five thirty in the morning. I just got back from playing around in the pool after hours. We discussed our moving to Vermont this next spring/summer while in the hot tub. Mostly I just talked about how much I'd enjoy having friends again. At this point there is really only one other person outside of Jessica that I even speak to anymore on any sort of regular basis and it rather depresses me.

So I'm really hoping Vermont is going to open up a lot of doors as far as friends, job opportunities, living opportunities, and intellectual inspiration. I just need to survive about eight or nine more months. And really it shouldn't be too bad. Only two of them will actually be a core class, and it will be literature of all things. (can do literature with her eyes closed, but preferably open!)

I suppose in other news I got caught up in all of my classes and today I learned how to recolor hair for Sims 2. I am now, however, overly wanting to do some writing but I have to get done with English or I'll kill someone. I think it's making me thoroughly unwanting to do much of anything.

Um, I guess the only other real update to be made is that Jessica and I are considering going as Mitsuru's personas for A-KON next year. I'm to be Artemisia, whom looks like this... http://images2.wikia.nocookie.net/megamitensei/images/3/34/Artemisia.png ...that. I'm very worried of being asked to leave due to safety hazard. After all...I could put an eye out with that thing. We'll see.

Kaitlin, signing off. (probably to struggle to stay awake through the day)

I just wanted to post that the best movie I've seen this new year (and I've watched a lot) has been Doubt. It was just -ridiculous-. I thought given the plot I'd be bored out of my mind but instead I was biting my nails the whole way. The writer was -phenomenal-, making the Priest the protagonist and the nun trying to accuse him of molestation the antagonist. Really great watch!

Also, I'm writing! woo!